This article contains descriptions of abuse endured or witnessed by children at 香蕉视频直播淚ndian hospitals香蕉视频直播� that may be triggering. It mentions suicide and violence against children including sexual, physical, mental and emotional abuse.

Support for survivors and their families is available. Call the Indian Residential School Survivors Society at 1-800-721-0066, or 1-866-925-4419 for the 24-7 crisis line.

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The Nanaimo hospital was one of an estimated 31 香蕉视频直播淚ndian hospitals香蕉视频直播� run by the Canadian government from the 1930s to 1980s to segregate Indigenous people from non-Indigenous ones in underfunded facilities with poorly trained staff. They began as a means to sequester the disproportionate number of Indigenous people catching tuberculosis, but soon became a breeding ground for the disease and an experimental lab for vaccines and medical procedures to be tested.

At six years old, Jones had no idea why he had been taken to the hospital, but later in his life when he requested his old medical files, he discovered he香蕉视频直播檇 only contracted tuberculosis after arriving there. Today, he struggles with lung problems as a result.

But it isn香蕉视频直播檛 Jones香蕉视频直播� damaged organ tissue that makes it hard for him to breathe when he香蕉视频直播檚 alone or when he wakes shivering in his own sweat in the night. It香蕉视频直播檚 everything else that was done to him.

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Punishments came in the form of whippings and beatings. Jones says he thinks the electric shocks were used when children spoke their own languages.

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Jones is calm as he tells his story. He香蕉视频直播檚 warm and personable and inviting. But, his throat catches as he decides to share the one piece of his experience he香蕉视频直播檚 only told three people. He takes a deep breath.

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The statement hangs in the air with a quiet force. Jones takes another deep breath and widens his eyes, allowing the cool, fall breeze to dry them.

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The decades following the hospital have been hard. Returning home, Jones says his parents told him not to talk about his experience out of fear of the government, or 香蕉视频直播渢he outside world香蕉视频直播� as they called life off the reserve. He remembers his brother going into that world one night and returning beaten and bloodied. It wasn香蕉视频直播檛 safe out there, Jones determined. It wasn香蕉视频直播檛 safe to be Indigenous and it wasn香蕉视频直播檛 safe to share his story.

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During the Sixties Scoop he was again taken from his parents, and later Jones ended up in a juvenile detention home.

Eventually, Jones realized his pain was taking him down the wrong path and he sought help. He finished high school, went to college, and started a security service in the movie industry.

It was only then, about 10 years ago, when his life had stabled out that his suppressed memories emerged. One night, Jones was showering before going to work and blacked out. A friend found him curled in the bottom of the tub in the fetal position.

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On bad days, Jones says he sometimes imagines swimming out into the ocean from Dallas Road, as far as he can go until he香蕉视频直播檚 so tired he knows he has no chance of making it back. But he says he doesn香蕉视频直播檛 really mean it, not like he used to.

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Jones has three children and three grandchildren he loves dearly. His brother calls him daily and he has a whole host of friends and support workers he raves about.

There are good days and there are bad days, but Jones says all that matters is that each one is a new day. And, when he looks out at the children playing in the courtyard of his Indigenous housing complex, he says he feels some relief.

Trauma is passed down from generation to generation, but healing can be too.

Jones says he prays for every survivor and their families, that they, like him, receive the help and support that they need.

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The Nanaimo Indian Hospital ran from 1946 to 1967 across from what is now Vancouver Island University. During those two decades, it saw at least 14,000 patients. On Sept. 15, Snuneymuxw First Nation announced it will soon be searching the old grounds for unmarked graves.

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This is part one in a special series prepared by Black Press Media. You can find more of the series and other articles on truth and reconciliation .

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